My poor little blog has sat by the wayside as I have continued on with my life. I'm still dealing with infertility and I am in a different emotional place dealing with it all the time. My most recent "I" of infertility is introspection. I have been trying really hard to deal with how I feel about things. I have been trying to find the roots and the little branches as they weave from place to place.
My life has changed in a few ways since I last wrote here. First I changed jobs. I am now teaching preschool and I love it. However with teaching preschool I have found out that there is always a pregnant person around somewhere. I am waiting for one of my co-workers to have her baby any day. I also have a co-teacher who is trying to get pregnant. The good thing is that I have found out many of my co-workers have the same fertility issues I do. They all have kids now which also helps. I am wondering how I am going to deal when my co-teacher gets pregnant. I spend many hours a day with her and I may not deal well. Lets hope that she will at least tell me she is knocked up in private because she knows about my issues.
I have also found out that the leaders of our small group also deal with infertility. That was very helpful to find a friend as well. It's amazing how this journey has led me down many paths and in many ways I'm much deeper in my faith. I have tried to see the things God is changing in me. I have tried to be aware of the positive things that are developing in my life. I'm trying to keep the faith that God has it all figured out and His perfect timing will prevail.
